A New Beginning…
As part of the oppressed generations in South Africa, life has come at me with a vengeance, proving the old cliche, “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger”. Traveling the world (alone) since the ripe age of 19, has taught me so much in life, yet, I am still so uninformed and insecure, without self confidence, especially when it comes to standing up for myself and having an opinion.
Fighting for stability in my family, has been a lost cause, really since the day I was born. However big and well known we are in society, close, we never were. Fortunately, with my travels, a handful of loyal friends have been obtained throughout the years, through thick and mostly, thin. Only the best, have stayed to pick up the pieces, and still are. These friends, are my family, as far as I am concerned. A couple of them go as far back as Kindergarten, backing me up and sometimes, getting into trouble with me. Those are still in my life, everyday, helping me fight my demons, grabbing them by the throat, facing them and kicking their butts. This is my new motto in life…well, the first one, really. After 30 (something) years of bad childhood memories and fighting for my right to speak as an adult, I have finally stood up and let the world (well, at least my parents) hear my voice. It wasn’t easy, to stand up against very powerful and manipulative people. Shaking in my boots, having sleepless nights every time there was a confrontation, or, on the so many countless occasions I was seeking their approval, was not an option anymore.
However, that said, something had to be done, to revive myself as a human being, and as a creative person, I leaned towards art. A lot of us being artists in our family, from musicians, actors and professional painters, I found it only natural, to start my own little projects to keep my mind off of things, and concentrating on pouring my frustrations into my art. Thus, the birth of my doodles, and some other things too, which I will enlighten you with. As many of my author friends say – it’s not important how others feel about your work…it’s important only for yourself, to love what you are doing, and that you, and you only, are happy with the results.
A big fail a couple of years ago, starting off my little hobby, was to ask for advice from the big artist in the family, considering that I’m more of a sketch artist, than a painter…and have never really held a paintbrush in my hands for a task, let alone mix up colors and put it to canvas! Immediately I was scolded for even thinking that I could get away with trying to paint, let alone sell my work, as I, did not attend professional art classes at Varsity, to qualify as an artist. So much for support from the family. So I decided to venture on, on my own, and grab the bull by the horns – needless to say – with the wonderful support from my friends.
March 13, 2013 at 10:00 pm
Peter my friend, thank you! I will be updating soon – so keep an eye out! Dikke kussen xxx
March 13, 2013 at 10:07 pm
`Ello Cuz !!…its never too late to shrug off the yoke of oppression – our family is made up of a line of very powerful matriarchal figures but unfortunately a matriarch “gone wrong” becomes a powerful abuser, and instead of guiding, controls – instead of teaching, humiliates – instead of supporting, dominates and ultimately leaves a trail of emotional destruction in her wake….very little grows in the shadow of a huge tree, because its roots suck up all the nutrition to feed itself and its shadow is too over powering to provide shade, it blocks out the sunlight, the best place for you Liza is to step right away into your own sunbeam….I am so proud of you for standing up for yourself !
February 12, 2013 at 5:06 pm
This is the most beautiful description of our family I have ever heard! I don’t believe anybody could have said it better than you just did. You went right to the core of the issue at hand, and nailed it. Thank you so much, cuz, for all your love and support over the years…and ALWAYS being there for me, lifting me up and loving me, when I most needed it. Love you xxx
February 12, 2013 at 9:44 pm
Lovely Liza, how I miss South Africa with your background, bringing all my memories of growing up in the bushveld close to Zeerust……..your love relationship with God and His love for you is really the only relationship that must be in order ad that will add eternal value to your life, all the rest will be added on to you.
Many blessings with your blog!
February 12, 2013 at 2:51 pm
My dearest Zollie..only with your guidance throughout the years and persistence, I have managed to get where I am today, spiritually. God Bless you and your beautiful family, and thank you so much for your kind and loving words xxx
February 12, 2013 at 9:46 pm
Good luck Liz. You’ll make a success of this too!!
February 12, 2013 at 1:30 pm
Thank you so much, Nina… thanx for your support and constant love! kisses! xxx
February 12, 2013 at 9:47 pm
I love the background Liza. Why is it that 30 something years seems to be the amount of time it takes for us to stick up for ourselves and start taking charge of our lives and our pasts. I with you hunny all the way. My support is here for you. I have also recently learned who my true friends are, some have fallen by the wayside but many new ones have stepped up to the plate in my time of need. I have renewed faith in humanity, their are a lot of really nice people hiding amongst the snakes.
February 11, 2013 at 7:50 pm
Aww thanx Adele!!! Thank you so much for your support here on my blog, and in my life! True friends are indeed hard to find, and even though I’ve learnt so much the passed couple of years, I still make mistakes where my kindness gets abused… growing hair on my teeth for this one!!! 😉
February 11, 2013 at 7:54 pm
This is a great post. I read a saying recently which applies I think. “When you’re up in life, your friends get to know who you are. When you’re down in life, you get to know who your friends are.” I’ve found this to be true in life. Keep doodling and keep sharing.
February 11, 2013 at 6:01 pm
Thank you dear, it means a lot when I can have my supporters share or even relate to what I’m attempting in life or what I’ve been going through!
February 11, 2013 at 6:22 pm
looking good 🙂 look forward to reading more x
February 11, 2013 at 5:32 pm
Rhonda thank you so much! Yes, hopefully I will have this up and running smoothly very soon!!! xxx
February 11, 2013 at 5:41 pm
Looking forward to reading your future posts.
February 6, 2013 at 4:19 pm
Thanx – hopefully that will be soon!!! 😉
February 6, 2013 at 8:08 pm
Looking good so far, the setting up takes some time Liza but is worth it in the end. I look forward to seeing your first post once you have decided on what you are going to do on here.
February 5, 2013 at 10:44 pm
Adele thank you so much for your support!!! My very first comment on here! This is all very exciting! Yes, it will take some time, but I’m having the time of my life! Can’t wait to start picking at all my grey matter and slapping it on here!!! xxx
February 5, 2013 at 11:01 pm